Brendan Marrocco sometimes looks down at his arms and can't believe they really exist.
Until six weeks ago, the 26-year-old didn't have arms. He lost both of his, as well as his legs, in the Iraq War when the armored vehicle he was driving ran over a bomb in 2009. He was the first soldier of the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to lose all four limbs in combat and survive.
But Marrocco has arms again because of a rare double transplant performed by a team of surgeons at Johns Hopkins Hospital on Dec. 18. Marrocco wheeled himself into a media briefing Tuesday using his new limbs.
He and a team of doctors that helped perform the transplant talked about his recovery and what life will be like when the transplanted arms are fully functional.
"It's given me a lot of hope for the future," Marrocco said about the surgery. "I feel like I've been given a second chance."
Marrocco still doesn't have much feeling in his arms and it could be two to three years before he is able to fully use them again. Nerves regenerate at a pace of about one inch a month, meaning recovery can be lengthy, said the lead surgeon, Dr. W.P. Andrew Lee.
"The progress will be slow, but the outcome will be rewarding," Lee said. "Brendan tells us he is up to the challenge."
Marrocco said the arms, though they once belonged to someone else, already feel like a part of him. He instinctively scratches his head and touches his face with them all the time. Sometimes, he folds his new arms in his lap. The arms make him feel like his old self — like he was before the accident.
"They have truly become a part of my everyday life in the last few weeks," he said. "It's like I went back four years ago and I'm me again."
Marrocco was a machine gunner stationed at Forward Operating Base Summerall in Bayji, Iraq, at the time of the explosion that nearly took his life. About six months into his tour of duty, he was driving an armored vehicle in a convoy on a routine mission heading back to base.
He doesn't remember details of the accident. Four soldiers were in the vehicle at the time. Marrocco would later find out that his best friend in the military died and another soldier was wounded. The fourth somehow was unharmed.
Marrocco's injuries were so extensive that his father, Alex Marrocco, said he didn't recognize his son when he first saw him in a military hospital in Germany. The Army infantryman spent months recovering in Germany and at Walter Reed National Military Medical Center in Bethesda before moving to a home in Staten Island, N.Y., built with donations.
He was given prosthetic arms but never fully adjusted to using them. He had become somewhat proficient using the left one, but rarely used the right because it was bulky and hard to maneuver. While he was fairly independent and did many things for himself, his older brother Michael, moved in with him to help out.
Transplanted arms are better for some patients, Lee said, because they allow them to feel sensation. A patient with a prosthesis has to look when he ties his shoes so that his brain will process the activity. However, Lee described a patient with transplanted arms who could tie a ponytail with her hands behind her head out of eyesight.
Transplanted arms allow double amputees to become independent, Lee said. It is hard to perform simple functions with two prosthetic arms, he said. Younger patients also don't always do well with the artificial limbs, he said.
A doctor at Walter Reed first told Marrocco about the possibility of arm transplants and offered to put him in touch with Lee, who was then at the University of Pittsburgh.
After he met with Lee in 2010, Marrocco was on board despite the risks that came with the surgery, including the possibility that it wouldn't work. He decided surgery could be no worse than what he already had endured.
"The worst-case scenario was if I lost the arms I would go back to the way I was," he said.
In the more than two years it took for a pair of suitable donor arms to be found, Lee and his team of doctors moved their program from Pittsburgh to Hopkins. Meanwhile, superstorm Sandy damaged Marrocco's home so badly he had to move out.
Then in mid-December, donor arms became available and Marrocco was bound for Baltimore.