Anna Nicole Smith diaries for sale — again

Two personal journals handwritten by Anna Nicole Smith are going on the auction block — again.

The two diaries, written in 1992 and 1994 by the late Playboy and Guess jeans model, reveal some of Smith's innermost thoughts, including fears at meeting the head of Guess jeans as well as expressions of love toward her then-husband, the elderly Texas oil tycoon J. Howard Marshall II.

A German businessman reportedly paid more than $500,000 for the journals last month during an auction on eBay. Now, the diaries have been consigned to Heritage Auction Galleries in Dallas, which has scheduled a live auction on April 14 and 15.

Doug Norwine, director of music and entertainment memorabilia with Heritage, said he has placed a pre-auction estimate for the journals at between $50,000 to $100,000 but noted they could easily sell for more.

Norwine said the auction house obtained the diaries from unnamed "German businessmen" or members of a "German conglomerate" that had purchased them to obtain the rights to publish their contents. Once they had finished with them, he added, they decided to auction off the journals to collectors or fans.

At 39, Smith was found dead Feb. 8 in Hollywood, Fla., from accidental overdose of prescription drugs. She is buried in the Bahamas, and a legal battle is underway over who fathered her infant daughter.

One of the journals being auctioned is a "Dreams" diary from Hallmark with handwritten, often misspelled, entries between June 3 and Aug. 16 of 1992. She writes in both pencil and ink, and on the front page in felt tip she writes her given name, "VICKIE SMITH Do not read!"

In the diary, she expresses nervousness as she prepares for a meeting with Paul Marciano, the head of Guess.

"He's comming to meet me on Sun. Cant wait!! ... Please God let him love me!! ... This could be it [followed by five happy faces].... I'm starving!! Been starving myself.... Hes going to publish my pictures Im so glad I didnt sleep with him either! ... Ive been really stressed out lately and depressed and I cant quit eating. I feel like a pig.... "

She then adds: "I hate for men to want sex all the time. I hate sex anyway.... "

The second journal is a "Guess Kids 1994" paperback ring-bound diary with entries dated from Jan. 3 to Dec. 26.

Some have depicted Smith as a gold digger because of her marriage to Marshall, who died in 1995 at age 90, but in her 1994 diary she wrote:

"My husbands very sick and weak, Theres nothing I can do I want each hour to comfort him with medicines and prayers.... When you touch him Im afraid he might break.... Sometimes he tries to smile and give me such hope, he a fighter and I believe he can make it.... If Jesus desides to take him I dont no what I'll do. I love him so much."

Norwine said the entry is particularly interesting because of what it reveals about her affection for her husband. "You would have to assume that no one would be devious enough to create fake entries to think that 'After I die, they will have a different opinion of me,' " Norwine said.

"Truly her life was Shakespearean," said Norwine. He said there are other items of hers also being auctioned, including a Texas photo ID, a personal check and a receipt that she signed when she went on a little shopping spree.