The first cut is the deepest, they say. You never get over your first love. So it is with me and Subaru.
The 2005 Outback was the first car I ever bought new off the dealer floor. And it broke my heart.
The Subaru capped a succession of well-preserved, low-mileage used cars, diamonds in the rust, starting with a 1951 Chevy panel truck for which I paid $90, followed by a 1961 Ford Falcon that cost me $300. Then came a series of VWs, Datsuns, Toyotas, Volvos and Fiats, along with an occasional Buick Skylark or Le Sabre thrown in for good measure.
These classics, compromised by time, were homely, humble daily drivers that all required a great deal of daily maintenance. By 2005, I was tired of having to carry a full toolbox everywhere I went.
The sturdy but stylish Outback was the best car I'd ever owned, and I took it everywhere. Armed with all-wheel-drive, ABS-enabled disc brakes, a powerful six-cylinder engine, a full complement of airbags, a sunroof and a roof rack, it mastered sand in the desert and snow in the mountains.
Though it got there and back in comfort and style, it quickly developed problems. There were little issues like window seals that didn't seal, more pressing matters like defective timing chain tensioners, and critical failures in transmission and suspension.
If I hadn't had the wisdom to pry a 100,000-mile bumper-to-bumper warranty out of the dealer, the Outback would have wiped out my wallet before it wore out my patience.
Eventually, it did both. At 180,000 miles, the Outback fell prey to a common Subaru problem and blew a head gasket. Though the car was still driveable, it became subject to occasional but violent fits of overheating.
I was done. A man who didn't want tell me his name or his plans for the car answered an online ad and paid me in cash to take the Outback off my hands.
So it was with mixed feelings that I stepped into the 2017 Subaru Outback.
The Outback Touring HDL model I drove is powered by a 3.6-liter six-cylinder engine, and, like my 2005, grips the road beautifully through a symmetrical all-wheel-drive power train and six-speed automatic transmission.
It now has a manual mode, for paddle shifting, and also, unlike my old one, comes standard with hill hold and X-mode — a system that controls downhill coasting speed when the driver is concentrating on rocks, ruts or ditches.
While these are not necessary for my commute from hilly Silver Lake, they are part of the off-road capability that has made Subaru the bestselling brand in rural, rugged states like Washington, Maine and Colorado.
This fully modernized Outback also comes standard with amenities like hands-free lift gate, heated front and rear seats, keyless door locks and ignition, electronic parking brake, voice-activated navigation and a Bluetooth phone connection that actually works — first time, every time.
The vehicle has a generous collection of airbags, and driver assistance programs like blind spot detection and a lane departure warning system that was alert to any straying left toward the double yellows but was strangely indifferent to the car drifting to the right.
The car also has a "Hey, wake up, dummy" alert, telling the driver that the car in front, at a stop light or in a traffic jam, has begun to move.
The cabin space is generous — though I found the driver's cockpit a little narrow — with plenty of backseat headroom and leg room. The relatively narrow A and B pillars make for good visibility, increased by a back-up camera.
The rear seats fold flat, adding to the already generous cargo space in the hatchback area.
Underneath that, there's even a full-size spare, an increasingly rare "accessory" on new cars.
The big engine packs plenty of pep. Around town acceleration is good, as is freeway passing power.
The price to pay for that is in fuel economy, which as on previous models isn't great. This drivetrain promises a combined maximum highway score of only 27 miles per gallon. (The lower-priced, four-cylinder Outbacks, fitted with 2.5-liter engines, boast 32 miles per gallon on the highway.)
Braking is smooth and confident, and that AWD drivetrain holds the road nimbly. I wished it had been snowing someplace nearby, or raining hard enough to make mud puddles, so I could have put this to a real test. My experience suggests it would pass beautifully.
The Outback has a five-star safety rating, for frontal and side crashes, and a four-star rating for rollovers. It feels safe, too — planted, solid and sure-footed.
But, in the long run, would it break my heart again?
Consumer Reports put the Subaru in its "reliable" category in its most recent dependability report. Beaten badly by Lexus and Toyota, and slightly trailing Kia, Mazda, Hyundai, Infiniti, BMW and Honda, Subaru placed 11th in a field of 29 automakers. That put them slightly ahead of well-regarded brands like Acura and Nissan, and far in front of Volkswagen, Jeep and Fiat.
But earlier this year the company issued a recall on 52,000 Outbacks and Legacy sedans, telling owners to stop driving them and dealers to stop selling them until a possible steering malfunction could be repaired.
Then, in early October, the company issued a recall for 100,000 turbocharged models that were at risk of catching fire. Later that month, about 600,000 Legacy and Outback cars built between 2010 and 2014 were recalled for faulty windshield wiper motors that could also catch fire.
Subaru sales have remained high. At the recent AutoMobilityLA, the company announced it had enjoyed 59 straight months of sales increases, and expected that 2016 would see an eighth year in a row of annual sales growth. Its November sales numbers, according to TrueCar, are up 12.9% over the same period in 2015.
Boasting totals of more than 600,000 cars sold in the U.S. in 2016 — for a 3.5% market share, up from 1% a decade ago — Subaru said it would be selling 800,000 cars a year in the U.S. by 2020.
I hope they sort out and eliminate any remaining quality issues. Recent recalls and the end of my poor Outback notwithstanding, I still have a soft spot in my heart for this brand.
2017 Subaru Outback 3.6R Touring
Times' take: Best Outback ever, but it's still a Subaru
Highs: Cushy and capable compact SUV
Lows: A history of reliability issues
Vehicle type: Four-door, five-passenger SUV
Base price: $26,520
Price as tested: $39,070
Powertrain: 3.6-liter, 6-cylinder engine
Transmission: Six-speed automatic
Torque: 247 pound-feet
EPA fuel economy rating: 20 miles per gallon city / 27 mpg highway / 22 mpg combined
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