Behind the story: Giving birth while covering midwives

Two midwives, one holding a flashlight, assist a woman during labor
Midwives Allegra Hill and Kimberly Durdin work with Gladys Sanchez as she labors next to a birthing tub on April 25.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

Last summer, as deaths from the COVID-19 pandemic were spiking, I was looking for a story about life when I came across a GoFundMe page where two Black midwives, Allegra Hill and Kimberly Durdin, were raising money for a birth center called Kindred Space LA in Hyde Park.

At a time when people of color were disproportionately being sickened and killed by the pandemic, Allegra and Kimberly were bettering life from the core, caring for mothers and their infants. My goal was to document their important and compassionate work. What I didn’t expect was how their story would affect me as a journalist and a mother.

Two midwives attend to a newborn as the father looks on
Midwives Kimberly Durdin, left, and Allegra Hill examine newborn Tori Davison as father Dontori Davison watches.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

A few months after starting to photograph this story, I became pregnant with my second baby. I continued appointments with my obstetrician, which because of the pandemic were boiled down to the essentials. My husband wasn’t allowed to come with me. My body and pregnancy felt like a medical condition that needed expedient treatment, not like joyful preparation for the arrival of a new life.


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Simultaneous to my own prenatal appointments, I photographed clients at Kindred Space LA. Tamara Robertson once brought her four boys, partner and her little brother to a prenatal. Midwife Kimberly offered tangerines, asked Tamara’s partner what he was feeling and suggested ways the boys could help their mom.

A expectant mother, surrounded by her family, is examined.
Tamara Robertson is examined by midwife Kimberly Durdin while surrounded by her four boys, partner and younger brother.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

The midwives speak about how a birth is a birth for the entire family, in contrast to my OB-GYN appointments, where the only person involved was me.

After photographing Aijalon Redd’s prenatal appointment in March, Allegra asked if she could check my baby. She laid me down and listened to the heartbeat and then to me. She asked what I was feeling, and I shared how my husband and I sometimes have differing views on child-rearing. She listened and offered her presence. I was treated like a human, not just a body — or just a photographer capturing her story.

A mother holds her newborn in a tub
Aijalon Redd holds her baby girl, Tori Davison, for the first time after delivery.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

I was 31 weeks pregnant when Ashanique Nelson-Cavil was delivering her baby in the birth room at Kindred Space LA. Throughout the hours-long delivery Kimberly and Allegra worked tirelessly — an intense and amazing experience to witness. All the while, the midwives graciously kept my nutrition and hydration in their thoughts.

Have you eaten? We have water here. Would you like a snack? Can I make you some eggs?

I was drawn to this story, in part, to learn why some people find refuge in an out-of-hospital birth. I had grown up without putting much thought into my birth experience, just assuming — like many in the United States do — that it would take place in a hospital. That I did not question my birth plan for so long is connected to the privilege of having a white body. People don’t walk into my hospital room with racist baggage. I know that makes me lucky, but I also know I don’t deserve that privilege over others.

A woman labors inside a tub as two women assist.
Gladys Sanchez labors inside a birth tub as she is aided by midwife Allegra Hill, left, doula Andrey Lemon and partner Justin Charlton on April 25.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

Four of the women I photographed for this story are Black and one is Latina. Each had their own reason for wanting an out-of-hospital birth. There is real trauma connected to troubling statistics about Black infant and maternal mortality rates. These feelings can grip an expectant mother, making pregnancy and delivery feel like a life-or-death experience. No wonder they sometimes feel that the birthing center is where they need to be.

A mother holds her newborn
Ashanique Nelson-Cavil holds daughter Indigo Amani Cavil moments after her birth at Kindred Space LA in Hyde Park on May 28.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

I am happy with the birth experience I had with my first son, Elio, in 2018. My OB-GYN patiently worked with me for over three hours of pushing. I received an epidural and the hospital staff was kind and attentive. I have a lot of gratitude for how everything went. It is comforting to know that hospitals are available if we need or want them. But something in me changed from my first to second pregnancy.


As I spent more time with the birth workers and their patients, I began to question more and more where I wanted to deliver. Where would I feel safest, where would I feel most cared for? My questioning was tangled up with anxiety about COVID-19 and my emotional well-being as a pregnant woman during a pandemic.

A midwife examines a pregnant woman
Midwife Kimberly Durdin checks Gladys Sanchez’s cervix a week before her due date at Kindred Space LA.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

By my seventh month of pregnancy, I had watched Allegra and Kimberly provide intimate and vigilant support to multiple clients. I knew I really wanted to be in their care too, but journalists have to be mindful of conflicts of interest, so there was no way I could have hired them. I spoke to the midwives about this and Allegra recommended other midwives to me. I buried the feelings and continued with my hospital plan.

A few days before my delivery, Allegra and I were texting.

“I try to keep myself from thinking how I might feel a little sad not delivering with you and try instead to think about how amazing it is that my time with you and Kimberly 180’ed me. That impact is a very real and very beautiful thing,” I wrote.

A woman breast-feeds her newborn
Aijalon Redd breast-feeds her baby girl, Tori Davison, for the first time.
(Dania Maxwell / Los Angeles Times)

“All love for you and this journey of creation we get to walk together. But there are no mistakes in birth and you will be exactly where you need to be,” she wrote back.


My second son, Coda, was born on July 6. I arrived at the hospital just a half-hour before he came out. My obstetrician hurried to be there with me, but beyond her control she did not make it in time to deliver him, though she did make it for my placenta. As it turned out, I was helped by a midwife — the hospital’s midwife, aided by a team of nurses. Coda had entered the world so quickly, that maybe even if I had hired Allegra and Kimberly, they might not have made it either.

A woman smiles alongside a mother with her newborn
Allegra Hill visits Times photographer Dania Maxwell, with her newborn son, Coda.
(Allegra Hill )

Maybe I ended up exactly where I needed to be.

Four weeks later, Allegra asked to come over. She knew the neighborhood where I lived and was nearby. The visit was sweet. I felt seen. She marveled at the life I created while leaning back into my couch. A true birth worker who cares about the well-being of babies and mothers, whether Mom showed up as a patient or with a camera.