In a lengthy, wide-ranging interview, Mark Scott Thornton spoke Wednesday about topics ranging from the murder of Westlake nurse Kellie O'Sullivan to his own troubles as a child.
* On his life:
"I've been trying to get through my life, make it better and it's never happened. I think it's because of my mental depression. I've always thought low of myself. Thought I was no good. Thought I couldn't achieve things.
"My stepfather putting me down and not being able to achieve and do things in school. Not having many friends to tell me to keep going when I fell. To say you can do things.
* On friendships:
"I would try to be with the popular group in school. But I never fit in. It was like they were the rich and the famous and I was like the little boy on Skid Row. Like the little boy with a smudge on his face.
"It made me feel bad that I didn't have a lot of friends. I clung to what I could get."
* On Judge Charles McGrath:
"He's given me some good breaks and some bad breaks. I think he did a fair job, except not listening to me when I wanted to fire my lawyers."
* On trying to fire his attorneys:
"The judge practically laughed at me."
* On jail guards:
"These deputies like to taunt me. 'You're a lady killer. Oh, you shot her in the back.' I'm just sick of the harassment I get from deputies."
* On being called a victim of society:
"I don't buy that I am a victim. I don't think I am a victim, and I don't think that I am not a victim."
* On reasons for talking:
"I've wanted to talk from the very beginning and my lawyers told me it wouldn't be a good idea to talk to the press because they would twist and turn my words around."
* On being called a predator:
"Society has this look of me as a sophisticated killer, and that's not me. If society knew who I was, they'd be shocked. I'm not a cold-blooded person, and I don't thrive off seeing people in pain. I love people. I'm 20 years old, and I just feel like the person they are talking about is that I've gone around all my life hurting and stealing and putting people in misery."