A Tearful Raider Finish for Allen : Pro football: Running back is emotional before, during and after his last game with the team.

The last time.

Those three words kept going through Raider tailback Marcus Allen’s head all week.

Thursday was the last time, he told himself, that he would put on pads to practice against his teammates at the Raiders’ El Segundo training headquarters.

Friday was his last time he would take a team flight to a game.

Saturday was the last time he would be in a silver and black uniform after 11 seasons as a Raider.

His relationship with owner Al Davis apparently beyond repair and his hopes of becoming a free agent about to be realized with the expected signing of a new NFL labor agreement, Allen has known for some time that Saturday’s game against the Washington Redskins at RFK Stadium would be his last as a Raider.

But that didn’t make it any easier.

When defensive lineman Greg Townsend told Allen before the opening kickoff that he was dedicating the game to Allen, the tailback’s eyes filled with tears.

And they didn’t dry up until long after the final whistle had blown.

In the fourth quarter, Allen looked up at the scoreboard and saw there was only 3:15 to play.

More tears.

“At that point,” he said, “everything seemed to be in slow motion. I cried like a baby out there. I was watching people walking back and forth, on and off the field. I was thinking about how much I would miss these people rather than what was going on on the field.”

Nearly two weeks ago, Allen had stood in front of his locker stall after a game and spoke in anger about his years under Davis. But Saturday, there was only sadness.

“I have so many memories, good and bad,” he said. “It was wonderful, yet it was terrible at the same time. It’s been tremendous being with the players, coaches and some on the administrative side. But because of things that are beyond my control, I won’t be here.

“I always wanted to end my career here, to retire here, but it hasn’t worked out. I’m on a collision course with destiny. It’s not going to happen here, so I’ll leave it in God’s hands.”

At age 32, Allen says he can still play somewhere.

“I want to play,” he said. “This is what I was born to do. I need to be rejuvenated. Justice will prevail.”

And with that, he headed out of the Raider locker room.

For the last time.